God is laughing so hard at me

Do you ever just sit and think about the plans you had for your life and then look at your life now and it’s NOTHING like you planned on it being. They say when you makes plans for your life god laughs because you have no idea the plans he has for you. Sometimes the things we go through are great and then there are other times when we feel like god is punishing us and why do we deserve this? Today is one of those days where I look back and my life is nowhere close to what it was supposed to be. I’m blessed beyond measure in ways I couldn’t see before. My babies are healthy and happy, I was able to birth 7 children (I feel a lot of people take fertility for granted just my opinion) I’ve got to experience many things that most 28 year old women don’t get to experience at such a young age. I may have lost a husband but in losing him it’s made me realize what love really is and what it really means to unconditionally and selflessly love someone (we never got this part down before he passed). I honestly don’t regret any of the decisions or paths that I’ve taken in life. Some were good, some were bad, and some were down right ugly but they’ve shaped me into the big hearted loving mother that I am. Idk if I’m thinking about all of this because I’ll be 29 next week, but I just want to take a moment to say how grateful I am on the journey that god has put me on. My life is in shambles right now but I know he never gives me more than I can handle and I know the plans I had for myself couldn’t have given me more humbleness than the plans god had and has for me. ☺️☺️☺️