Basically I've been feeling horrible about myself. work and shit. I sent the following paragraph to my friend. "I know I'm a mess. I know I say things over and over again. I know all these things but they are the only things on my mind. I hate myself and I'm trying to heal. I'm trying to move on. I hate the fact that My fwb messaged me saying that he was there for me to vent and stress relief. I hate that my crush will never see more than a friend. And I know thay who will end up with my crush will be the luckiest girl in the world. I'm constantly using products on my face to make it it acne free and nothing works." I've haven't felt good about myself in months and when I did feel good about myself was when I was with the fwb. he messaged me saying he still found me beautiful and it made me smile. when my crush says my dear to me it makes me smile. But I just feel lonely.