Heartbroken and hopeless 💔😢

Cd 40. 20 dpo. Another negative test.

I really want to give up on this tracking bs. Cause all it’s doing is making it worse. What sucks is I feel like I’m obligated to track my ovulation for multiple reasons. My cervical mucus never changes, I can’t track bbt cause my sleep/work routine is so screwed up, some days I’m up at 3 am, some days I’m up at 6, some 8. And with my horrible schedule, my husbands is just as worse. So we’re lucky if we find the energy to have sex once a week. I think I’m done.

We had agreed a little while back that if this doesn’t happen naturally by my birthday (August) that we would pursue help. I’ve already been seen at an rei (reproductive endocrinology infertility) clinic. It was our choice to wait a few months. I have one daughter thru IVF... but I went through that process with someone who is no longer in my life. I’m heartbroken and hopeless. I don’t know what to do 💔😭