Not in my best friends wedding. Warning long rant !!

Please no judging, i know I might be making this a big deal.

So, my best friend is getting married and we will be going to Mexico. After awhile of her planning and what not, I asked if she’s doing bridesmaids or anything like that. She said yeah I think I’m just doing my sister and the soon to be sisters in laws. She was my one person that stood up there while I got married. The ONE person. I could have chosen many others. But she’s my best friend so I chose her.

Her fiancé, he doesn’t have any guy siblings so I’m assuming he’s doing his friends that will stand up there with him.

I just don’t understand why she didn’t ask me to be up there with her. :( I understand just wanting family up there but who wouldn’t have their best friend stand up there with them. Maybe I’m just not her best friend to her, idk🤦🏼‍♀️

I then asked her if she was doing a bachelorette party, and she said yeah my mom wants me and these people to all go to Vegas, you can come if you can afford it. If I can afford it!? You have to be kidding me. (Yes I can and that’s not the point) I wasn’t even really invited she only invited me cuz I asked about it.

So She’s planning the wedding for January 2020, so she’s wanting people to start paying in a couple of months. I said that I might wait because that’s like almost 2 years away and anything could happen! Prices could change, maybe they’ll break up (I don’t think so and I hope not but anything could happen in two years!!) and she’s kinda grumpy about it because I said why don’t you start planning prices 6-8 months before!?

Idk ladies, I’m so in a wtf moment lol. I’m also pregnant and hormonal and maybe I’m overreacting . What can I do... I really don’t feel like she even cares I’m her friend.