I don't want any of this anymore. I can't and won't raise a child with a person who's as selfish as my boyfriend. Who doesn't even care about me at all. Who has made me feel like complete shit throughout the entirety of my pregnancy. Who belittles my feelings and pain. I refuse to have my son grow up to be anything like him and his dad. All he does is pick fights and blame me for every little thing. He ignores me for hours, days, a week unless I grovel to him for forgiveness. He doesn't know how to comfort me and be sensitive about anything, when all I do is try to make him feel better. I wish I had never gone back to him. All it does is break my heart and leave me alone in my bedroom crying. I can't do this anymore but I can't do this alone.