31 weeks and I’m still disappointed it’s a boy.

Im excited and thrilled.

But I’m still having a little bit of issue with it being a boy. I think mostly because it’s what my abusive ex wanted and it just seems so unfair he always always seems to get what he wants.

He wanted a son

But when we found out I was pregnant he said some god awful things about not wanting the baby and that he wouldn’t love it.

Then after finding out it’s a boy he began harassing me about how he’s going to be in the delivery room and blah blah blah. How he wants to be in his life now.

But before he said “jokingly” if it’s a girl I don’t want it. If it’s a girl it’s adoption.

Like he had full say in it or something.

Obviously I’m not with him anymore and actually haven’t heard from him in months thanks to his father stepping in and telling him to leave me alone.

Anyways.

I might still be salty about all this and that’s why I’m having issues with it being a boy?

I don’t know. I feel selfish for being disappointed. I really wanted a daughter but I’m happy either way.

I just get sad or upset when I see baby girl stuff and really disappointed.