Numb.. UPDATE

We finally sat down and had a conversation about what has been going on.. my first thing was “you’ve said you’d stop on weekends since it’s our family time before.. and you broke your word. What’s going to change this time around?” His response was “well because your and my baby. Lus are more important than anything in this world. And I’m not going to lose that over a stupid game.” 😍 since our talk he’s been there for us. Spent more time together and he is quick to ask me now if he can play when I’m napping with baby..

*These past few weeks have been super tough.. so my husband and his best buddies play this online game.. don’t get me wrong i understand it’s a getaway for him and his alone time with friends, BUT lately he’s been obsessed with it... so much so that he even downloaded it on his phone.. he was skipping family time on weekends to play which I was definitely not okay with and we discussed it.. he made a pact and said he would only play after we hung out during the week and no weekends at all unless our little one and I napped.. now I’m pregnant with my second so I know my hormones are off the charts and I get more emotional than the usual but this is getting ridiculous.. he completely forgot the pact he made.. he plays from 9- to past midnight.. knowing I get up early to drop baby off at daycare before heading to work.. then gets mad because I wake him to pick up baby from the crib since my belly no longer allows me to pick him up out of there.. it’s bad enough Im not getting any sleep because i can’t get comfortable and i constantly need to pee.. then he complains that he’s tired! Like are you f$#%ing kidding me right now!! 😡 it’s like we have one family day to ourselves and that’s more than enough for him.. this Sunday we didn’t even hang out at all.. and while baby napped i figured we can have husband and wife time but no he decided to play.. by then I was too irritated that I just let him do his thing. I’m still mad and honestly just been completely ignoring him.. I honestly feel numb and don’t even want to speak to him. If he doesn’t care why should I?!? Is it wrong for me to feel this way? I honestly don’t know how I feel for him at this point.. I don’t know if it’s just because of my hormones or whatever but seriously.. 🙁