Gotta get this off my chest.

I now know 10 people pregnant.

4 have been trying & clearly successful. 6 have NOT been trying...total oops.

My bf & I lost our baby last year on Easter (4/16) at 12 wks. We’ve been trying, not protecting against it, but also tracking, being healthy, etc.

Still no luck for us. I’m fucking tired of baby showers & gender reveal parties. I’m tired of seeing the negative sign or the “not pregnant” or just one line. I have 2 gender reveal parties & 3 baby showers within the next 2-3 months so far.

I hate that I’m gonna have a plastic smile on my face as I try to be happy for these women. But I sit here and wonder what’s wrong with me. My doc says nothing with either of us.

But....fuck man. I just want it to be “our time”....”when God says”.....& I’m trying to “enjoy life without kids!” Because lord knows, we’ll “never have time for ourselves again”....but we’re ready for that. We want that.

😡💔😢😭☹️💔🖕🏼🖕🏼🖕🏼