Struggling

I'm currently 5 weeks and 4 days along. I've suffered a blighted ovum and miscarried at what should have been 10 weeks and then miscarried again at 6 weeks before this pregnancy. I go weekly for hcg blood draws and in between those, I'm still peeing on tests to make sure my line is still as dark as it has been but it's still a struggle to not worry, to not overanalyze every little twinge. we want this baby so so bad and had been ttc for 14 months and I'm just not sure if I could handle another loss. I think I'll feel alot better once we have an ultrasound and actually see that there is a baby and a heartbeat but until then, I keep trying to not worry but it is not easy at all. what do you guys do to keep yourself distracted and staying positive?