Gave up and stopped for a while

So I have been for another appointment at the hospital due to my cyst growing from 3cm to 6cm in a matter of 3 months. Iv got to go for another scan next month and then to see the doctor after my scan. I had 9 lots of bloods done and I’m not actually sure what they are looking for. My periods are all over the place at the moment. Iv been told by my gp at my doctors that I’m being immature about wanting to go on the pill to stop getting pregnant 🙄 what am I supposed to do? Condoms are really a good way to stop falling pregnant while all this is going on because Iv had 2 miscarriages and I don’t want another one to happen. I know iv basically ranted but I stopped coming on here because I envied every woman that gets their babies 😏 i am so happy for you all I just needed some space because I became obsessed with trying for a baby xxx