Helpful living advice/tips bc I have no one

Soooo I’m a senior trying to plan my life after school I wanted to go to a 4 year but the deposit for my college I wanted to go to is May 1st .. my mom isnt taking me to tour it or anything and I really wanna go so I’m stressed !! And she also probably wouldn’t help with the deposit slip and I haven’t applied to scholarships cuz my finical aid application is messed up....

Anyways i thought about living with my dad because he lives in the city and there’s more job opportunities I don’t wanna live with my mom because our house is gross and she always smokes in it🤢but on the other hand my dad and his wife fight a lot and shit and she’s very bitchy and so can he can be and he hasn’t supported me a lot in life .. so idk what to do anymore I just wanna go to school but my moms so worried about the cost of college .... my 4 year vacation the hell away from everyone sounds great but it looks like my life isn’t going that way :(