Please help. Depression.

Please don’t tell me to “see my doctor” or “go on meds” or “call a hotline” because I do these things. I just moved and I’m in the process of getting my therapist and I’m still on my meds, the third type of medication I’ve tried which doesn’t help. I’ve been eating healthy and exercising when I have the will to get out of bed. My boyfriend is deployed and I have no friends here and I’m lonely and I dread life. Everything gives me anxiety. On top of that I’m still in the process of getting a job I can’t start for about a week or two and I’m thousands of dollars in debt, I have to pay rent for a place I’m not even living at (don’t ask), and everything is crumbling down. I tried writing lists like “meditate, take a bath, color, read, take a walk” etc but it’s all bullshit I never want to do that. What do I do? Please only reply if you have depression or anxiety and can sympathize and give me a realistic answer.