I miss you

So me and my boyfriend have been trying for 6 months straight and nothing. I just lost hope but he didn't and he would keep trying sometimes. After a year I go to buy a test and it came out positive. I was so happy but worried because at the moment I wasn't so healthy. I wouldn't eat regularly and I would throw up so much. I was worried... so I go to the clinic and they tell me I had a miscarriage. I was so disappointed. My boyfriend doesn't know and I really don't want to tell him. I know everything happens for a reason but I'm honestly so heartbroken over this till this day. My angel baby is in a good place though 💘 I wish I could've met him/her. I just wanted to talk about it because I haven't told anyone. Anyways, I'm still gonna keep trying. Good luck to everyone trying! and to my baby that I never got to meet ..... I love you oh so much! I'll never forget the day I found out about you and you'll always have a special place in my heart my love.