Hello, I’m 17 and I’m mentally messed up. Here’s why

Okay so, I’m gonna tell you everything about my messed up life. My childhood was messed up from the gecko. My mom and dad were major drug dealers, when my parents found they were having me they were really in to doing cocaine.. my mom never stopped until she was 7 months pregnant with me. Anyways, my dad and mom were big in to parties too. I remember when my dad and mom were to drunk to even bathe me. I’ve been basically taking care of myself since I was 6 or 7. My parents calmed down when we got really poor , literally we ate 1$ burgers from Burger King every night or 5$ hot and ready from little ceasers . But atleast my dad tried to make it work, about June of 2010 my mom finally left my dad, which I was happy about because my dad was a emotionally abusive alcoholic. Which I learn to figure out why later in life. My mom was cheating on my dad from 2007 to when they were dicvored. My dad knew the whole time but didn’t want to say anything because he didn’t want his family to leave him. This caused me to overeat .. a lot because when my mom left we went to my grandmas which my grandma likes to cook and make lots of food so I gained about 20 pounds in two months. I was 11 years old weighing 120. So this is when I gained Anxiety, depression & really bad temperament issues. In sixth grade I weighed a good 130-140 pounds and started to harm myself which just resulted in to a lot of hospital visits and disappointment to my parents considering they literally hate each other and want nothing to do with one another. My moms boyfriend moved in, when I was in 7th grade. So these were my prime hormonal bitchy phase of a teenage girl. This dude ended up touching me inappropriately. We were watching monster house (i know stupid right) and he started to move his hand on to my inner thigh (not touching skin though) and would like move his finger along my vagina back to the other side of my inner thigh. Well, I told somebody and everything went crazy. My mom turned in to a psycho bitch who hated her own daughter . She literally just told me he was staying and to just stay away from him while I was still living under her roof. Well after about two years he did it twice more and I officially lost my shit, and flipped out on him and he left. So I was happy. Until I met her new boyfriend. This dude was a disrespectful asshole who sold all of our stuff for his cigarettes and weed. So I moved out and started to live with my boyfriend . I’ve been on my own for 3 years. But my mental state is so messed up. I have 6 suicide attempts 3 going to the hospital 3 not. Thank you for letting me vent .