Feeling very depressed, need music therapy. Suggestions???

Long story short once again I hate my life. I've hit a point where I literally cant even get a job because have no vehicle and live way out of town and can only see my husband but ever now and then because his job is 300 miles away. I have no kids, no friends and live with mom so I'm not alone, I've even lost 110 lbs and i cant seem to get where i want to be or get in shape, AND I NEED MUSIC. Music is everything to me and i need some to help me get through this. I know I'll survive, I always do but I need an outlet so i stop feeling like I don't want to survive. I love all music, especially rock (the heavier the better) and anything with a lot of bass....EDM, R&B, Rap, house etc. I'll even listen to some zen music to relax, i just really need positive music suggestions though, I've pretty much been listening to "I can do bad all by myself" on repeat.

Thanks for any suggestions, and sorry for the sob story.