I’m so over this!!!!

I need relief.. I’m 38 weeks and can’t take it anymore. I have two toddlers and I’m doing this all alone. I feel so depressed. My doctors won’t listen. I just need a relief man. I can’t continue to just wait for labor. I’ve tried everything. I’m in pain 24/7. I’m just tired. Kids father was abusive and I left at 12 weeks. It’s been sooo hard I need my body back. Idk what else to do or how to be happy at this point. Just really needed to vent that’s all.