Feeling defeated 😕

Yesterday was a tough day! I went into work and found out that not one but two of my work colleagues are pregnant. I swallowed my disappointment said all the right things but inside my heart was breaking.

This news just also happened to come on the day that I had to accept that the spotting I was trying to convince myself was implantation was AF.

I sent a message to my husband (who is away on business) hoping for some words of comfort as I desperately tried to not breakdown. His response “Great news, now you can go for the promotion!”

18 months of nothing, 18 months of disappointment, 18 months has taken its toll.

Feeling tired, frustrated, emotional and alone.

Had blood work, sperm testing and ultrasounds - all have come back normal. Got an appointment with a fertility clinic on Monday so should be feeling positive but yesterday tipped me over the edge.