So hard...

TTC for 9 months here. Age 33- husband 35. We’ve both had children, 5 years and 12 years old. I thought it would be easy, we’ve both done this before. But it’s not easy, and perhaps thinking it would be easy is what set me up for some seriously disappointing months. I’m the definition of a positive person, I am a therapist who helps people on a daily basis, it’s the epitome of what I do for others. Yet this struggle has given me all the feels...and I find myself in a love/hate relationship with this app. I don’t like to talk about this struggle with actual people I know, probably because it makes it seem more real, so I get on here and read comments and stories of hope and desperation. I do not feel alone because of this app but than I also become fearful that this wait will never end. But the therapist in me wins out so after next month, I’ll go to the OB and find out for sure if there is something wrong. No more worrying and wondering until I know I’ve done everything We can do.

Just know your not alone and there are thousands of us out there scrolling and reading your hopes and desperation.