Never Had an Orgasm

So I am 18, and a virgin and I have never had an orgasm. I masturbate a healthy amount, but it’s just clit stimulation and my little mini release is just that... very small. I have tried vaginal penetration and that doesn’t work (and anal will not be the way for me) I know how it can take a long time for women to finally orgasm and before they do, they just get close. But in my situation I have never ever been close and it sucks because for some reason I feel bad about my self about not being able to and I feel like when I find someone to start “doing stuff” with, I won’t be able to reciprocate what they feel... I need help. I JUST WANNA FEEL LIKE A WOMAN