Finally will be over soon

Well after the last ultrasound 3 weeks after my first ER visit my doctor told me the pregnancy was either a molar pregnancy or a blighted ovum.  Due to the possibility of molar he wants to do a D&C, so that is scheduled for Tuesday morning.  Now that it has been decided I am not holding up well.  Up to this point I was so focused on getting someone to listen to me about something being wrong.  Now that the dr has agreed and we will move forward to finish I am left to realize this is real and I am not pregnant.  The only good thing is I have 3 very good friends all of which have had miscarriages before.  One even lost her twins late in the pregnancy last year.  They are all being very supportive.  That helps.  But unfortunately they all live in different states.  I have my mother coming to visit.  I fly down and her and I will drive back.  That is July 10th.  So I have that to look forward to.  But until then it will be hard to not want to curl up and cry.  I am just so broken hearted that it is finally over.  Oh and the worst things?  I got an invitation to a former coworker's baby shower this week.  And my best friend since high school is pregnant as well.  We were supposed to be pregnancy buddies.  She found out a week before me.  So as she goes through her pregnancy I know I will be thinking, "that could have been me!"