I need closure!

I recently gave birth to my boyfriend and I’s first baby. In the labor room I only wanted him and my mom. But his mother whom I don’t like invited herself in there and of course I couldn’t tell her to leave because my boyfriend would have got mad and I didn’t need that when he was supposed to be supporting me. So his mother and two of my friends were in there and since no one got the hint to get out of my room when my nether regions were going to be showing, I feel indecent and exposed to this day.. I’m mostly upset because I’ll never get a second chance to relive having my first baby.. please someone help me get closure! Just this whole jumbled mess makes me break into tears every time I think of it!! Did any of you mommies feel the same?? Or did it get better when you had your second?? Please help this depressed mama😭