do i need help

i have the feeling of emptiness in my life and small things depress me n i start to cry. i think i have anxiety coz if some thing bothers me then its hard for me to concentrate or sleep this makes me very lazy i stress eat. i feel like my whole world rebolves around my husband im fully dependent on him. had 3 miscarriage n its depressing me i had a bad past all that is in my mind. sometimes I feel like I would blow up. its like i just compress my emotions n i have no one to share it with. sometimes ive had suicide thoughts. what is it. if i need help whom should I see