Something wrong with me ? Lol

I’ve been with this guy for a while now , but lately I’ve had an overwhelming desire of wanting him to cum in me (I’ve never had anyone cum in me before) . I would ask but it seems bizarre. We don’t use condoms, I’m on the pill and he pulls out. The whole point is to prevent pregnancy and I feel like asking him to cum in me Is counterproductive. But I really want it 🤦🏽‍♀️😩. I’m not even sure why. I just do.

(Side note : we did almost have an accident where he almost didn’t pull out in time and he was like “we would’ve been good because you’re still on bc)