Crazy libido but we’re taking a break
I feel like I'm going crazy. I haven't had the best luck with relationships. I've only had two long term boyfriends and the first one cheated on me. And I think my second one has just officially fizzled into nothing.
We dated about 5 months. Then all the sudden, right before the 5 month mark, I felt a shift. He was always short with me. His schedule mattered more. And even worse, he started playing basketball more than seeing me. I didn't complain at first but after a week passed without seeing each other I tried to reach out. Only to be met with excuses. He didn't see me because he was busy/had a basketball game/was tired/just saw me a week ago. I became increasingly frustrated. I only got him on the phone because he refused to talk in person. We argued it out and he apologized and promised he would do better. Another week passed and nothing changed. I tried to get him on the phone again after not being successful setting up a time to meet in person. But he refused to call this time. So we texted. I didn't argue this time, I just asked questions and read his answers. The biggest question I asked was if he wanted to break up. He said no, but said we should talk in person. When I asked when we could meet up, he said that he didn't know. This caused me to snap. I told him that I was so confused and at this point of not seeing each other for two whole weeks and hardly texting/calling, we could hardly be considered dating.
I told him I wanted a break and surprisingly he agreed. So now we're on a break. That was 2 weeks ago. Now I have a huge problem. We're both college students and are easily stressed out. One of the things I loved most about him was our sexual chemistry. When I took the time to reflect, I realised that the thing I missed about him the most was his penis. Go ahead and judge. But I'm hardcore struggling. I'm stressed out and I know that he can give me what I need, BUT WE'RE ON A BREAK.
I've considered asking if we can just do a FWB thing. Or something. I just need something more than my vibrator. It doesn't pleasure me anymore. I need a man, I need to get laid so I can actually get a good night's rest and walk funny during the day.
I know he hasn't been the best boyfriend around but he took complete care of me in the bedroom. And I miss it so very much. What should I do? Ask to rent his nether regions? I can't go back to one night stands, especially since we agreed to not see anyone else during the break. I'm horny and tired and I'm just at my limit.
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