Pregnant and my BF left me. Here is my story.

As I sit here in the dark, I really began to mesmerize and think about everything that has happened over the last few months. The pregnancy, the tears, the heartbreak. The man that I truly loved left me again. But this time I'm pregnant. He left me to go through this alone. How could he do this to me? The first year was amazing! I knew that I met my best friend and soul mate. Before meeting him I decided I wanted to do a man “fast” because I was so ready to meet my husband and if I was talking to any man that wasn't a potential, I dropped them. Meeting him was so surprising and awkward and I was scared. But it felt right and it immediately made sense. Well after a year, he left me and said he needed a break. Well the break tore me into pieces. I slipped into depression and went to counseling twice a week (I had a son who was 6 at the time and my depression was taking a toll on him). As I got stronger and moved on. Here he come. 6 months later. I'm feeling good. I lost 35 pounds (through exercise) (I wasn't big or fat but thick in the right places) and I was going on dates enjoying my life. He cried and pleaded. Called my mom begging her. I changed my number and tried to move on. After months of begging and chasing me. I gave in. But everything was under my decision and things were gonna go slow. The first 2 months felt like old times. But the 3rd month being together I fell pregnant. (I normally track my ovulation but the previous months my cycle was going from 28 days to 21 days then it went up to 35. So I tried tracking it (to avoid having sex on those days ) and it failed. Well, he took it fairly well. At first. The following weeks. He went quiet. I didn't hear from him for a week. I had a doc appt. And he showed up. We talked but then we went to a restaurant a week after and he broke it off with me in a public place. He said that he know he will make a great father but felt like I wanted too much from him. Ok. So I was heartbroken. I didn't hear from him for 2 weeks after that. His mom called me and was saying not to give up and he is just nervous and blah blah blah. I said the hell with him and moved on as I didn't just have one kid anymore to think about. I have 2. So today I am 2 days shy from being 13 weeks and I will tell you as the days go by, I get stronger and stronger. I know he will come back but this time I'm done! So many times when your in love, we tune out the red flags. The red flags that other people see but we don't. I have moved on and actually getting ready to take the nclex-Rn this Saturday! (Currently an LPN)  I know my mr right will show up. But in the meantime, I am focusing on being a strong woman and mommy to my children! To all my single mommies out there, there is hope! You will never be alone even though it feels like it. I love my babies more than anything and I couldn't thank God more for this amazing Gift that is growing inside of me. My time is Here! This is my year.