I became a mommy to an 👼🏼

On Saturday I was 4 weeks and 4 days. I woke up and immediately knew something was wrong. I ran to the bathroom and saw I was bleeding. My fiancé rushed me to the ER 5 minutes from our house, where I already knew what the doctor was going to say. Two hours went by, two blown veins, and a catheter later. I was miscarrying our baby. The doctor asked if I would like anything to help with the pain and I told him “ no sir, I’m embracing this pain because when it’s gone my baby will be too.” We left the hospital and I cried and I continue to cry because, I lost something I never got to see, hold, kiss or know. I lost something I loved from the moment I found out I was pregnant. God needed my baby more than I did so he called my angel home... I am a mommy to a beautiful angel and I will never forget about my first baby.... my future kids will know they have a sibling in heaven, my step son will know he has a sibling in heaven. And a piece of my heart will always be in heaven. My heart truly goes out for any mom who loses a child before or after you’ve gotten the chance to meet them.. 😭💔👼🏼