I hate this 😣

I’m 17, jr in high school, all ap classes. I can’t get a job because I’m already stressed with school. As things started cooling down, I went to apply to local stores. None hired me because i didn’t have experience (besides volunteering), some needed 18+ years of age, & I don’t have a driver’s license (my mom doesn’t want to take me even tho I begged her so many times already). My mom never wants to give me money, not even for things I need. My stepdad has to pay bills & I don’t feel comfortable asking him for money because I don’t know I’m not his responsibility. I can’t look for jobs more out of my area because I don’t have a car. My mom always appeals to my stepdad & her old car, she used to say was mine but after my stepdad’s car fucked up, he used it & she’d day it was still mine but eventually she just gave all ownership of it to him. My ex gives me money when I need it. I’m not proud of it but it’s the only way I can get around to paying things I have to pay. He does it out of kindness, not to rub it in my face or in exchange for anything sexual. I just asked my mom for $20 to pay a school thing & she basically bitched at me for always asking for money (but I’ve never asked her??) & she told me “go get a job at the Michoacana” & SHE KNOWS I ALREADY APPLIED BUT NEVER GOT A CALL BACK. I hate living like this. I hate depending on someone & feeling like I’m stuck in the same spot not being able to move forward or get out. I really ain’t shit.

Update: @the care.com comment, thank you! I never knew of this website. Just made my profile & hopefully I can find a way to make it on my own ❤️ god bless you