Body image...

It's been awhile since I posted something on this app I've been having problems with my body I just don't feel beautiful at all I feel disgusting in my own body I just can't seem to like my body I try to stop those thoughts and feelings but they seem to always come back I have this love hate relationship with my body some days I will tell myself your body looks fine the way it is and you should embrace it but then I see the imperfections I have no boobs and butt I'm not skinny enough I have stretch marks all over my body I have this hole in my skin above my boob and I have no clue what it is I have a skin condition the makes me have bumps all over my arms and they will never go away I'm ugly I hate the way I looks I get so jealous of how beautiful the people around me and social media people are and it just makes me so sad and angry because I can never be as beautiful as they are I don't ever want to show my body to anyone because once they see it they will be disgusted by it I think I need to go back to therapy for a bunch of stuff but It never seemed to work I wish every day I will wake up and some of my perfections with go away I just want to be happy if it even existed