Again pregnant?

ANA • Mom of 2💙 💝

I have a 10 months and a half baby boy which I love so so much. Of course I would like to have other kids but not now. Period is in May 6th. But I don’t know why something told me to test 4 days before. So I got the one which gives you results 5 days earlier. I’m shocked shocked. I mean I’m not ready for a second child. How will i handle this. Please I need some courage. I’m crying right now. I don’t even think about abortion but not ready for this baby. Hubby doesn’t know yet. And the worst is that for the 4 last months I smoked not much but 4-5 cigarettes per day. If that would hurt my baby? We weren’t trying that’s why I let my self enjoy some bad habitudes from the past. I feel lost. I’m so down