I'm losing my shit

Okay, so I don't know what the heck is going on with me but this is just nuts. I'm 5 weeks pregnant. I'm waiting for blood work to see if my hormone levels rise to make sure everything is okay. I'm stressed it might not be. My husband and I aren't telling anyone for a little longer so I have no one to talk to about it and I'm an absolute wreck. I cannot stop crying.. I hate everyone. I don't know if this is normal or if I'm crazy but I can't deal. I thought writing this out here would help but nope I'm crying even harder. wtf?!