He wants therapy.

My relationship has been rocky from the start i was 16 he was 20. we both cheated... I never had a real bf i was always trapped in the house in my room my dad would see a boy walking down my st and he would make me sit in my room until he left. I found out my mom had cancer then found out i was adopted all at 16! I didnt trust anyone and had nobody so I met my bf this way by leaving and my friend introudced us and we hit it off but i cheated and so did he. We had a baby and got married 5 years later and had another baby. We argue alot still he takes off on me. He doesnt helo me with our 1 month old. I feel useless.... He tells me im a bad wife. I changed so much in the past 5 years ! We have a home together i cook and clean. Hell throw clean clothes on the floor ill pick them up. Hell make a big mess in the kitchen ill ask him to clean it and i end up doing it because hes lazy... im a sahm I left him go to school to be ab emt and he never went and did that career so hes now a bus monitor smh. So he told me hell work hell rather have me home with both kids. When we argue about something hell bring up go get a damn job and pay for your own shit or your a lazy bitch I picked up so much weight from stress so he calls me a fat bitch... He told me to go on a diet which i am on right now i was 110 when i met him in 180 now... Im sorry for a story thats all over the place im just so stressed from him and dealing with pp! I recently brung up therapy he said no now he brung it up but still treats me like shit! the name calling and everything i just cant deal I just had a baby and i have a child with autism the reason why im still pulling is because i have nothing no family, friends nobody! we have therapy next week and im not sure were going