Just need some advice. (Kind of long)

I am so down at the moment and just need some friendly advice. I have PCOS so like most with this disease, I have very irregular periods ranging from 2-6 months apart. They come out of nowhere and the only warning sign I get is an insatiable hunger for a week beforehand, nothing else.

I had my last period exactly a month ago and fell ill with a virus a week or two after. I was really poorly and felt awful, as you do, and during that time began to feel the common signs of my period coming again.

I do not get symptoms of my periods coming and never have them that regular, so i was pleasantly surprised and hopeful. My boobs became horribly sore and sensitive during that time, a common symptom of an oncoming period and the pain hasn’t waned even now two weeks later. I’ve been lethargic and nauseas, and every inch of me has hurt since i had the virus and it just isn’t subsiding.

Here’s the part that I need advice on: I had similar symptoms in July when I got faint positive pregnancy tests. When I had an ultrasound there had been no sign of a pregnancy at all, and it had been a huge nightmare for both me and my partner. I never want to go through that again, and that is my current predicament.

It is easy to buy a test and pee on it, but nothing prepares you for the horrendous feelings that you go through.

I’m not trying to get pregnant, I never even spared it a thought after what happened so this is not intentional. I just don’t know what I should do or what I’m supposed to do. I promised myself that I would never take another pregnancy test again in my life, no matter how badly I want children.

I guess this whole thing is just a cry for help. I need some advice on what to do because I just don’t know.