So today, I had my first doctors appointment. My mom went and my SO, let’s just say it was a little out of my comfort zone.

The Doctor with a wand up my hoo-ha moving around. First time ever having a pap done too, that’s my personal space lol

I got to see our lil bean, and see the heart beating. Lil bean didn’t want to cooperate too much and that made me giggle. I’m 8weeks but the biggest measurement she got was 7weeks 5days.

Now, later in the day, I go and see my grandparents. I was told that I’m not able to have this baby and do it and go to work and school. My grandmother handed me a poem about adoption. My grandfather asked if me and my SO are going to get married, I said not currently because not the right time. He then proceeded to tell me that I can “just keep being [SO’s] whore”.

Here’s little bean though,

Thanks for reading ♥️ needed to release it all. I just I love them so much so this hurts.