I’m so confused.


Okay I’ve been with my boyfriend for 2 1/2 years. Right before we hit two years I broke up with him because he was cheating and just treating me like crap. About two weeks after we broke up I gave him a second chance.. even though I don’t believe he deserved it. I do love him and always will. But even after getting back together I still very often wonder where I’d be if I didn’t take him back. I have really wanted to just live alone but he gets mad and says I probably just want to fuck people. But I just want to live alone and learn more about myself. Obviously I didn’t win that fight cuz we are living together.. lately I’ve just been really doubting being with him,even tho I love him.. I don’t know if I want to be in a relationship with anyone at this point in my life.

I kind of want to break up with him.. when we fight and I tell him to leave he tells me that he’s not leaving. I just don’t want it to be a big huge thing..

What should I do???