Guilt

I feel like I’m going to hell because I just started masturbating a few months ago but I can’t help it. I’ve been repressed all my life and taught it was a sin and if you do it you’re less than human and a slave of desire. It’s tearing me apart inside and I feel like I’ve been lied to yet I love the good things about my faith. If you pick and choose beliefs in my church you’re also sinning and if you doubt what you’ve been taught you’re sinning. I feel so sad and lost I enjoy this new part of me I’ve discovered at 19 I don’t even use porn to do it :(

I’m Catholic by the way :(