Well I just had a good hard cry.. crying because of the frustration I feel because there is no baby yet.. crying because of how inadequate I feel. Crying because I can’t seem to make my bf understand that we need to try harder.. he just doesn’t get it. Although I am older and it can take a while.. it still hurts all the same. I am so tired of the sadness I feel every month when af shows. I am scared it’s never going to happen. Sometimes I wanna just throw in the towel and say I give up. Just super sad today. God please give me strength 💔