Fantasize about other men!

I fantasize about having sex with other men who I know and even while I’m masturbating I imagine it’s them, my husband don’t know and I really don’t care anymore since our sex life sucks and I’ve talked to him about our sex life and he really don’t care to hear me out, it’s been bad and nothing pretty much since he lost 60lbs and I’m studs over weight. I feel like he’s not attracted to me anymore cuz he don’t do anything he has done before, like hold my hand, gives me a kiss in public, or just in general stands next to me any time I try to stand by him he moves and it’s always and he can never sit next to me.