Baby shower or not? Please read.

Jen • Baby #2 on the way. Due Nov. 12th, 2015
This might be long... Sorry. 
4 years ago I had my first baby and my sister held a baby shower for us. It's was perfect and we got everything we needed. She was so excited to have the shower for us and she rented out a hall and had food and games and cake and decorations done. It's was great. 
Unfortunately, my sister passed away in a car accident on Mother's Day last year and our family has been devastated. My parents and her 2 children obviously affected in ways many of us could never imagine. 
Now I'm pregnant with baby #2 and it's a boy. It's been so great for my family and given everyone so much hope and brought so much happiness to all of us. It's just been bittersweet for me because she was my only sibling, my little sister. Now, she's not here. She won't be able celebrate with us and my baby boy will never get to meet his auntie. Friends keep asking me about a shower but I don't think I could handle it emotionally. I cry just thinking about how my sister won't be a part, how a huge part of me is gone. I know this is supposed to be a joyous time and I am super excited about my little boy. I just can't help but break down each time I think of a shower without her presence. 
So, should I let my friends throw a shower for us or just kindly decline? My mind is all over the place and I can't decide what's best. 

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