My miscarriage story.

I just had a miscarriage. This is my second one. My first was in 2007. I was 13 weeks and all alone. The man who got me pregnant didn't believe me and left me before I lost the baby. All of my friends were friends with him and they didn't believe me either. My parents would have killed me if they knew I was sexual active so I didn't tell them. I passed the baby, still in the sack and held it for several minutes. It was more than I could bare, sitting there, alone with a 13 week old fetus in my hands. MY 13 week old fetus.

Fast forward to Tuesday of this last week. I was exactly 6 weeks along. I started bleeding. It was brown so it didn't worry me too much. Then, on Wednesday, it turned pink. I worried a little bit. On Thursday, it turned red. My husband was out of town for work. He was supposed to stay out til Friday night but when I told him I was going to the hospital he left and came home. They took blood, urine, a vaginal ultrasound, and did a pelvic exam. They diagnosed it as a threatened miscarriage and sent me home. Friday, the bleeding got heavier. When I was going pee for the last time before bed, I passed some tissue and showed my husband. I think we understood what was happening but we went to the hospital very early that morning anyway. All they did was take more blood and compare the HCG levels. They had gone from 222 down to 112. They officially diagnosed it as a miscarriage but wanted me to see my OB/GYN for one more ultrasound to make sure the miscarriage was progressing the way it should or if I needed a D&C. Turns out I expelled the baby already. I'm still bleeding but it should stop pretty soon. The big difference between my first miscarriage and this one is the love and willingness to help from my new set of friends. I've never felt as much love from anyone as I have from my friends and family in the last few days. They've offered to take my son, drive me to appointments, and comfort us when we need it. It's been overwhelming at times. I've never experienced this kind of love, but I am so thankful for the people in my life who care.