So, my first bf was wonderful. Godly man, great to my loved ones, didn’t compromise my purity,etc. I thought everything was great.

He broke up with me a couple of weeks ago, saying he thinks God is calling him to be single for a while. He hopes we can still be friends, etc. He then tried to video chat with me over FB Messenger/talk about an hour after breaking up.. but no direct contact since. Although he’s been viewing ONLY my Snapchat story-and he never used Snapchat when we were together.

I was heartbroken. I thought I was falling in love with him. Then I gave his stuff back to his sister-who I’m close friends with- at a mutual friend’s party. We ended up talking, and she says he’s not doing great. Stalking my social media because he’s worried and wants to “check up on me”...Not sleeping or eating, barely leaving the house, and just not being himself. She also said he DIDNT EVEN WANT TO BREAK UP WITH ME. And that he thinks he doesn’t do enough for the kingdom of God(which is 100% a lie. He volunteered basically all his spare time not spent with me to our student ministry).

When she said that, I realized that whatever drove him to break up with me goes WAY beyond our relationship. And I’m

worried. Because the man I fell for and started dating would’ve NEVER said that.

Looking back, he started pulling away from community-namely the YA/college ministry where we met, and his small group- after one instance where he told me afterward he had to “check himself” because he’d been tempted to do something sexual with me. My best friend(a guy) thinks that’s key and maybe he struggled with pornography and didn’t want to tell me or have it hurt our relationship. Especially if he says he didn’t want to break up with me. He thinks he may have felt convicted.

And I’m struggling. I was falling in love with him, and I still care very deeply for him.. But I don’t know how to reach out without making things weird. I pray for him-that he works out whatever he needs to, and tbh that there’s some hope of us getting back together if that’s God’s plan. Because I feel like it is... can’t explain why... What do I do? I don’t want to hurt him, but I also care too much about him to just do nothing...