Yep.... I’m going there!

***Sorry in advance, I need to vent this’ll be a long one... anyone that reads the whole post, thank you, I appreciate it.***

When you let this ttc “world” suck you into it’s tornado like vortex and you’re doing everything in your power to get out... ttc #2 for me has become this sad/sickening obsession. My husband and I have been trying for about 10 months now, mind you, I understand that there are women that have been trying for much longer, we conceived my daughter in less than 3 months. Of course I was a little cocky at first, especially constantly being told “the women in our family are fertile myrtles after baby #1”! I’m just so frustrated with myself... that It’s gotten to a point where I HIDE to go take tests now, knowing it’ll be negative. I find myself constantly researching something that deals with ttc. I’m at my breaking point, I’m done with all of it. No more. No more ovulation tests, no more tracking, no buying expensive/cheap pregnancy tests, no more. I’m sorry if anything I’ve said upsets anyone, I just needed to let this out. My husband is incredibly supportive, and is always here for me... I just can’t let him see me this upset, it’s hard to explain.

And please, spare me the “it’ll happen when it’s supposed to” or the “once you stop trying it’ll happen”, that’s the absolute last thing I wanna hear at the moment.