Sometimes I wish..

Sometimes I wish I was like you.

Sometimes I wish I was so selfish and heartless like you.

So I wouldn’t feel the pain you put me through.

So I wouldn’t feel the emotions you make me feel.

I think about you more than you know. I worry if your okay while you go to work, worry if your sleeping okay, worry if you remember how amazing, Handsome, and perfect you are to me.

I worry about you a lot, though that is my job. I am your girlfriend.

I know you’ve never had someone like me, but your making me feel like shit.

Like I’m annoying or worthless. I shouldn’t be feeling this way.

But your so selfish and heartless you don’t realize what you are doing because it’s normal to you.

Can you please just realize I am trying my damnest to make you happy? To make you realize not everyone is the same? To make you realize that I am worth it all if only you will open your eyes. I pray for you in the morning, in the shower, even while I’m at work, and most definitely before I close my eyes to sleep.

But it’s a never ending battle with you.