Failed FET... Please read.

So even though our FET failed this time... I don’t feel like the world is crumbling at my feet.. MY IVF journey is over for now.. But i don’t feel like my world is over.. It’s kinda strange, I put so much pressure on this process, it’s been 3 long years... BUT for the first time in a long damn time, I feel peace. I know deep down in my heart this isn’t over for us, not yet. Maybe this road is.. but not all roads. I’m going to take a break, focus on my family and myself. I’m going to get to a place where I don’t hate myself... Because to be honest after 3 years of infertility, it’s hard not to hate yourself in some way or another.. I want to throw myself back into the gym. Lose some weight. Love myself again!! I want to feel bone deep peace before we start “trying” again.. And even then we have to start over from scratch basically. And that’s ok.. Maybe, just maybe then, will be our time.. And maybe not. Maybe there’s some sweet baby out there that need us to adopt it and live it with everything we have.. I guess we will see.. But what I hope is, I hope you all can find peace... Wether it be with you BFP or your BFN.. I hope and pray for peace for us all. I think after 3 years, God has answered my prayers and given me the peace i’ve needed.. Good luck to you all! ❤️