Emotional
Husband left for basic with the Army Tuesday at 6 am. While I'm thankful we got a wonderful mini vacation before he left, and I got to drive him to his meps city and stay in his arms all night till he got up to leave the hotel...I am majorly lost. My heart is so broken and I am so lonely. I cried hysterically for 2 days straight. Yesterday day was the first day I didn't sob. Today it's been years here and there.
We've been together 6 years and have never been apart...if we were for work we talked on the phone or face timed. With being pregnant the emotions of losing this time with him are overwhelming.
I have no friends and no one to talk to who knows how this feels.
I can't pick up hobbies to keep me busy like everyone is saying because I work a 50 hr a week job and am now pretty much playing the single parent role with bills to pay for an entire family.
I can barely eat or sleep. Today has been the best day I've had so far.
We planned and talked. I knew it would be hard. I didn't think I would feel like he just up and left and be so heartbroken.
I know I will see him in a few months but it doesn't change how much I miss his voice. I just want to talk to him and hear his voice to tell me it'll all be ok.
I am Soooo glad my doc is a military wife because I wasn't going to get an ultrasound until 20 weeks. She pushed me through the Friday we left for our mini vacation so he could see the baby and they made the gender guess. He even picked a few names and that is a big one for him.
I just wish I had my Mae and best friend right now. I am so lost.
How do people do this?
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