I feel so guilty

That I’m disappointed about the babies gender when this child is healthy & my last was not. So really I should just be extremely happy that this baby is healthy but i’m a little jealous of everyone having girls 😩😩😩😭😭😭😭😭😭 no bows or dresses or cute bathing suits.😭😭😭😭😭 i guess i’ll save money but damnnnn 😩😭😭😭 okay now i’m gonna just gonna act like I’m extremely happy and get over it. & be soooo thankful That the Lord blessed me with a healthy baby boy💙💙💙💙