In a few days, I'll be getting in touch with the police to see and track down my case against my rapists after two years of radio silence from any official. I'm about to move into my first apartment, which is why I couldn't call to check sooner- I didn't feel safe talking at my parents house (they don't know anything happened, for personal reasons). As soon as I know more about what's going on, I want to try and let them know. I never WANT to think about the incident, but it's always there in the back of my mind each and every day, and some moments it feels like only a bullet could stop the memories from coming back and haunting me like this. It is so unbelievably hard to do this alone, can anybody offer me some support? Tell me that I'm doing fine? Moving forward seems like a mountain, the first one I'm not sure if I can get over.