Don’t feel turned on (advice)

I feel frustrated because when I touch myself down there, it’s like there’s no sexual feeling. No excitement, no sensations, etc. A little bit wet, but definitely NO orgasm! I tried masterbating with a vibrator once and it felt good and made me cry....but still nothing.

TMI: I *think* I know what an orgasm feels like, because I’ve had random sexy dreams and my vagina feels good and can feel it pounding inside.

But even during sex. No orgasm. My hubby has made me cum a few times and cried, but that’s it.

Does this have to do with my past history of molestation and rape? Is it something I can get over without therapy? Any advice, tips or tricks?

Also, when I experience extreme pleasure (like when I do cum), I noticed I kinda “panic” at the pleasure, and it seems like the feeling of orgasm goes away.

*crying as in tearing up from pleasure.