Patiently waiting until the end of the month

Hi everyone, my husband and I have been not using anything since we married in October but have been really trying for since Feb (I know it’s not that long in the grand scheme of things) but I find myself desperately wishing my period due date to arrive so I can see if it’s a missed period. -I am so regular that I usually start in the morning that I’m due.

Last month I was a day late, and I was stupid and allowed to get myself excited and the disappointment I had to face was horrible, especially as it was my husband’s 30th birthday weekend.

My question is do you do anything to control this? I never want to wish my life away once I stop ovulating I am counting down the days to my period day.

We both said that we would it get stressed about it and that we’re not ‘trying’ but we’re not being careful. I’m just so worried about not being able to get pregnant because I know my parents struggled.

I’m so new to this and I just don’t know how I feel. I know there are couples who have tried for years and here’s me moaning about a couple of months, please don’t think I’m doing this vindictively I’m just wanting a bit of advice/support to help these feelings