Month 5. I think I’m in my TWW somewhere. Had a meltdown yesterday bc I told my husband it was another BD night and he wasnt into it. Actually he hasn’t really been into it at all. I cried myself to sleep. Was depressed all day. Packed up all my TTC stuff and threw it in the trash. In the car tonight dropping my daughter off at grandma’s for the night, he told me he things we should take a month off. I told him it doesn’t matter, I’m done. If we can’t be into it together, I’m done.

I don’t know what to do anymore. It took us 1.5 years to conceive my daughter and we ended up needing Clomid. I thought it might be easier this time around. He’s just not into it. I feel like I’m doing everything. I’m 36 already, he’s turning 37 next week. What the hell am I supposed to do???