First time posting !:)

<a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android">Glow app</a> says I should ovulate day 8th of this month but for some reason my test lines seem lighter to me as the days go by could I maybe have already ovulated ?? ! I have a 5yrs old daughter with not my current husband ! I have been with my husband for over 4yrs since my little girl was 1yr old or less he took care of us ! Since then I i got pregnant again but wasn’t ready so we decided to take the pill :/ plz no judging !!! Since then I’ve been wanting to get pregnant and haven’t been it’s been about 4 yrs or less and no luck I don’t know if I would call it trying cuz I’m not but I figured in those yrs I must have sex when I ovulate but no ! I really want to give my husband a baby it makes me so sad that I can’t I’m thinking of seeing a fertility doc already I just wanna give up some days ! Maybe is a punishment from god :( what can I do !